I really dislike this. I'm really sorry. [you know who you are] I'm just really stressed and don't know what to do. It's come down to sitting on the bathroom floor to feel comfortable. I kinda feel like taking a really long shower right now, but they'd kill me. I woke up like maybe an hour ago. So I'm not really in the mood for going back to sleep or being in my room for that matter. Maybe I'm being selfish for asking but the guilt doesn't come until after. I thought I'd totally get over it. (well, I did..) Now it's something different. Now it's just the want need. Everything else is just words. It's ironic that that's all I'm asking for...more words. It's just that I want these...other words...to be more meaningful...to be not just words of reassurance but comforting conversation. I don't want it to be a one way street with someone to keep telling me to go the other way. I want it to be a casual walk along a trail. (I wonder if that made any sense?) Has it resorted to this? Really? Am I that desperate? Maybe I just need to disappear for a little bit to figure things out...It's not as if this "new" decision would change anything. It already feels that way. I've just been stubborn to admit it. I feel like a ghost. (Ironically enough I was called a ghost today.) Meh. No pictures for a while. Not even going to think about that. Gotta deal with just one thing at a time.
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