Day 121, May 31

I'm done. I have to end it. I can't keep lying to myself. I can't do it anymore. Perhaps I'll talk to someone about it tomorrow, but as of right now, I'm quitting. I'm leaving. I'm going to take myself down a step then build it back up from there. Sometimes, it's just what has to be done. I think this is necessary for my life right now. I'm going to lower that bar and throw all of my energy to be on top. I have no other choice.
I can't believe it's the last day of May already. I remember it just like it was yesterday. Reminding myself to take a new picture for this month. Now that I think of it, I don't think I even took a picture this month. =\ I don't know what I'm going to do anymore. I don't know what I want anymore.
It's not like anyone cares? Well, no that'd be a lie. Many of you care. I know you do. but perhaps not in the way i need you. Sorry to make you feel insignificant if you do. But it's true. I hear all the time of people being happy, happy with their friends and all this junk. Where do I have this in my life? no where. I'm stuck here in my room, til the end of time. Psh even they have more of a life than me. Who woulda thought. Even after all the bull.. Karma sucks and has chosen this time to kick me in the butt.

Picture for today: Sunset.

2 comments:

  1. i sure hope things work out for ya. even though its hard to feel important and accomplished right now, i believe in you!

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  2. aww thanks tyler. =] btw, i've decided...to not quit, which i shall right about momentairily.

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