Day 100, May 10

DAY 100!!! *wooo!* That's about all the excitement I have for today. Oh, and Happy Mother's Day. I was totally hoping for something epic today. It being Mother's Day and Day 100. But nothing epic. Sorry. Had a good dinner though. And made me some more spinach dip. Was going to eat ice cream, but I don't even feel like doing that. DOn't worry though. I'm fine. I promise, at least for now. I pretty much stayed in bed all day. Talked to Phil for a lil bit. (If you didn't already know, we broke up the other day) Uhm, I just talked to Alex for a lil bit. It felt good to get some things out of my system. I just hope that everything works out. I realized that..things just aren't going right right now. and it seems like it's all emotional stuff. The stuff that you can't buy. and it sucks. I've noticed something about myself though. I help those who ask for my help, and yet can't help myself. I'm glad that I'm able to help them and all, I just wish I could take my own advice. And it seems like this time around, I just don't care as much. Like I do, but I'm not really making that big of a deal about it. Aside from maybe on here and maybe a little when I talk to Alex. but aside from that I'm just kind of in hiding, per se. Just here. in the background, once again. School is not so well right now. There's supposed to be no more TSA for next year. There's no Florida Guard, until the adults straighten out. Alex and Kyle aren't at LPA. I don't know. My positive distractions are just gone now. Yea I still talk to them and hang out every so often but the thought that they're in a way just no there anymore really sucks. Especially with all of these other things going on. I just wish everything was back to the way it was. A junior year reset button would help soooo much right now. There's so many things that I would do differently. and all of those things would make such an impact to my life. I seriously probably wouldn't be in such a hole. I don't know.

Picture for today: At Tyler's house.