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October 5
I thought I was over this cold with just a small cough left. Apparently not. Well actually, maybe because I have no idea wtf is wrong with me. My head feels heavy. My arms feel weak. I feel like I could fall at any moment and just stay there. I feel like punching something just to exert some sort of force. Feeling like this isn't the same as when I had the flu, but in some sense it is. I have no idea. I feel just completely icky. I really want to go to school tomorrow, even if I haven't really done and work and don't want to have to make up excuses or hear how I could fail or whatever. I just want to get my mind off of things. I want to be happy. I want the good ol' times. I want to not be like this. I don't know what's wrong!!! I feel so out of it. meh. so that's my little update because apparently I can do this but not anything important!
September 28
So I thought I should give a little weekend update. I'm feeling a lot better in one sense but really meh in another. The first one being overall and the second just isolated to this very moment. xD Phil came down from Jacksonville on Friday. =] He picked me up from school and we grabbed some food and went to watch 9. The movie was okay. We spent most of the time talking since we were the only ones there minus the one lady who sat in the front lol. He came over Saturday too and we watched Hot Fuzz? I think that's what it was called. That was..interesting. The rest of the time I read Breaking Dawn, which I finished yesterday! Yesterday, I also went to a Florida Guard meeting. It was boring as usual. It was like the 9342983 time I've heard it. There was a bit of an attitude I didn't like but w/e its FG. I just want to get my hours and be done with it. I'm just irritated with the people more than anything. Today, I went to the chiropractor annd then napped. I woke up three hours late but w/e. It's not that I'm not in the mood to do work right now, I'm just really annoyed.
So backtracking just a bit. After Phil came down and hung out, I realized how like much more happy I felt. I don't know if it was him exactly but something just clicked and I felt immensely better about like everything. I hope that that continues for a while. I feel very much relieved and just somewhat "back to normal". Oh and I hate spongebob like 98734982734 times more now. Jenny and JJ (esp Jenny) won't stop singing those stupid annoying songs! lksjdflskdjfsdf. Aside from thattttt. Breaking Dawn was gooooood. =] Now off to do the huge assignments I've been putting off and will not have time to finish because it's already four and I feel sick.
Oh and We are Heroes won last night!!! =D
So backtracking just a bit. After Phil came down and hung out, I realized how like much more happy I felt. I don't know if it was him exactly but something just clicked and I felt immensely better about like everything. I hope that that continues for a while. I feel very much relieved and just somewhat "back to normal". Oh and I hate spongebob like 98734982734 times more now. Jenny and JJ (esp Jenny) won't stop singing those stupid annoying songs! lksjdflskdjfsdf. Aside from thattttt. Breaking Dawn was gooooood. =] Now off to do the huge assignments I've been putting off and will not have time to finish because it's already four and I feel sick.
Oh and We are Heroes won last night!!! =D
BBL!
Okay, so I've neglected my blog and I think it's time to call it quits on this project. (for now anyways) I know a lot can change in 100 days but I don't feel like it is what I wanted it to be. So until I can figure it out, 365 is doneeeee. I'll still post on here and what nots maybe everyday maybe not. (probably yes, when I don't forget xD)
Anyways, nothing interesting on my end. Kind of just in the bleh. I'll work through it soon, hopefully. It's just a lot of...me needing to be on my own for a wee bit, I suppose. So as the post says, be back later!
So my overall ideal goal is to clean up my online profile. Deleting accounts and things I don't use and creating a new domain and starting a website along with blog and gallery components. I found a template I like and I'm going to try to recreate something similar. I've never really built a site from scratch. (not at this level of epicness haha) So this will be something cool for me to do. Especially if I really want to get into photography, or any career for that matter. Just something that's like "hey, this is me!" Something...more professional. =]
Anyways, nothing interesting on my end. Kind of just in the bleh. I'll work through it soon, hopefully. It's just a lot of...me needing to be on my own for a wee bit, I suppose. So as the post says, be back later!
So my overall ideal goal is to clean up my online profile. Deleting accounts and things I don't use and creating a new domain and starting a website along with blog and gallery components. I found a template I like and I'm going to try to recreate something similar. I've never really built a site from scratch. (not at this level of epicness haha) So this will be something cool for me to do. Especially if I really want to get into photography, or any career for that matter. Just something that's like "hey, this is me!" Something...more professional. =]
Day 233, September 20
Rehearsed for my english presentation. (I do beseech you!) =] Ate some sushi at my cousin's house. Practiced more Hamlet and cooked us some mashed potatoes. Watched TV, freaked out for a good amount of time then went to sleep. I don't remember much else.
Day 232, September 19
So to start things off on a good note, here's a really cute article that you should read. =] I let this day go to waste. I even woke up at a reasonable hour (before I decided to go back to sleep). I just really wasn't in the mood to do anything but sit around. I'm feeling slightly paranoid about a few things. One I don't want to discuss; the other just the usual feeling lonely, again. I did a little facebook cleaning. (deleted fan pages, applications, and 'friends') I think I ended up deleting more than I intended to, but oh well. I had a good brunch though. I thought about doing homework, then my mom decided to sleep in my room so I decided to go watch tv. There wasn't anything on for a while. (Nothing that kept my attention anyways) I eventually stumbled upon some movie (I don't even know the name of it.) and it was fine. I received a text regarding TSA and it sucked to admit, again, that there wouldn't be TSA this year. Maybe that's why last year I started giving up. Maybe I already knew that it was slipping away. That it was over. Maybe that's why I lost hope. (that's a lame reason) But I can't help but see it that way. It sucks. And no matter how much I complain about it right now and how much I want to do it, it's realistically not the best idea to pursue. I just wish I had more purpose right now. More purpose than "it's for college". Where's the fun when you have to remind yourself that? It shouldn't have to be a constant reminder, it's something that should just be done, no questions asked. It's still kinda early in the night. Unless something decides to upset me, I don't see why I won't be able to salvage this night. Talked to Phil for a little bit. That made me feel better. (and I really mean that, I'm not being sarcastic xD) I really want Breaking Dawn! I'm going to eat a little bit for dindin then get going on some work. Oh, and should I take the Oct ACT? I would have to sign up for it before getting my last score. I felt confident on the last one but at the same time, you never know, you know? Any opinions on that?
--edit: perhaps no work tonight. Perhaps an early day tomorrow instead.
Picture for today: o.O
--edit: perhaps no work tonight. Perhaps an early day tomorrow instead.
Picture for today: o.O
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